Me: Ivo, I have always been aware of this to some degree but when Jesus said it in the Course in Miracles I practiced trying not to attack others. And I'm still doing it. It's not easy. We live with our ego's in the driver's seat until we can become more soul aligned. I find with these high energies coming in, my mood tanks and my ego sets up shop again to start its games.
Ivo: And you are being given the opportunity to relive the old again, my love, and to do it right this time. To do it in a more loving way. Because now you know better. We see you go back and forth. It is not for no reason I have told you that when you are in a bad mood, you drop to a lower timeline, and thusly incur more negative situations. A higher level of negativity will bring on more opportunities for change for the person. You find that when you are in a bad mood, there seem to be worse drivers on the road. There are. They are there for you, to help you to learn to forgive even when you are in a bad mood. Forgiving when you are in a bad mood raises your vibration. When you are on a lower timeline and can raise your vibration by being more loving and forgiving despite your ego's shenanigans, you bring yourself out of that lower timeline.
Me: Thank you for explaining that. It makes it more clear. I'm really tired today so let's see what happens as I venture out on the road. I wish I could sleep. Ascension isn't letting me.
Ivo: One bit of progress you have made is you now accept that in the city you live in, when you need to turn left you will be turning on a red light because none of the drivers will allow you to turn on a yellow light. You now accept this instead of honking and yelling at drivers asking them how many colours they need to get them to stop. That was actually humourous. You are funny when you are angry, my love.
Me: I just imagined a traffic light with about 20 colours on it and all of the colours lighting up in succession between the green and the red lights to get the drivers to clue in they have to stop. The law is that when the light is yellow, you stop if you can. Nobody does anymore. They all go through until it turns red, leaving the person turning left opposite them to turn left on the red light. So I get it. I have to live with that now.
Ivo: You are accepting of the reality of where you live.
Me: Some progress. I still want to leave. Anyway let's get back to attacking....
Ivo: Yes, you attempted to stop your mind from attacking others and were shocked to realize how often your ego does this. It would be worthwhile to make a mental note of every time you did so and to ferret out the reason, probably an illogical one, as to why it would be worthwhile to attack someone.
Me: Well, the typical ego reason: they were wrong and I was right was the reason on the amber light.
Ivo: So you must understand that whether you are right or not, people make mistakes driving, or in the case of the one who crossed the street in front of you and turned left as you were attempting to turn left, he did not care that your car was there and that you had the right of way. So you must understand that there are people in your city that do not care what the rules are.
Me: Yes, this place is pretty low vibe. I have to accept that and drive defensively. Now I pull forward at that intersection so that if someone wanted to pull out of the road they would broadside my car or they would have to drive behind it.
Ivo: Do you think that perhaps someone may do this?
Me: They might.
Ivo: So do you think it would be wiser to let them go first even though the law is on your side?
Me: Maybe. I'll see how I feel next time. I fear people who make their own rules because it makes driving dangerous for all of us.
Ivo: But they do do this and you were aware beforehand that he intended to do this.
Me: yes, I sensed it.
Ivo: So you must understand that other drivers make mistakes and they also do not care about the rules. When you accept this and give up your need to feel righteous, you will drive more peacefully and at a higher vibration. You need to stop trying to control others' behaviours. They will do as they please whether you like it or not.
You need to accept whatever it is they are doing because this keeps you aligned with soul, not your ego. Lack of acceptance, or resistance to what is, causes a drop in vibration that aligns you with ego.
Me: True. My ego won't attack them. Or it may try but I'll have the upper hand.
Ivo: You must understand, and this is your old 12 step lesson, what is better: being right or being peaceful? Acceptance leads to peace. Being righteous and attacking others leads to resentments. Peace keeps you connected to soul. What is most important for you? You must decide. Accept what is, or to not accept what is because it was done improperly. To lower your vibration through an attack of righteousness or to be at peace and aligned with soul?
Me: I sense that in my family, having been made wrong all the time by my parents, I associated it with low self esteem, low self worth and being attacked by others. It wasn't pleasant. I gave up when I was young. There was no sense in trying. My only goal as a teenager was to move out. That's what child abuse does to people, by the way. It makes them give up. So I guess my ego became defensive because it doesn't want to feel wrong anymore. I have to work on that.
Can we discuss the types of attacks the ego gets up to, Ivo?
Ivo: Of course. In your matrix world, you have all learned to focus on the behaviours of others. So much so that you even guess as to what they are thinking and feeling without asking the other person. You make assumptions about others that are often incorrect. You are focused on changing that which cannot be changed: other people. You do not focus on what can be changed: yourself. This is by design because it keeps you in a disempowered state. Keeping the focus on yourself and attempting to change your behaviour to that of higher frequency is the true goal of life. Attempting to change an entire world that refuses you is folly.
The behaviours that are used in attempting to change others fall under the category of energy vampiring. Yes. Criticism of another's behaviour is an example of the ego's attempt to change another. It is often sharp and unappreciated, not taking the feelings of others into account. This is a highly controlling behaviour. It is an obvious form of attack.
Advice giving is another, disguised as an attempt to help. These behaviours are all listed under codependent behaviour. To give advice when it was never requested is an attempt to change someone who did not request help. It is a form of attack.
Name calling, calling others stupid, seeing others as less than yourself, are all forms of attack.Whether it is thought or spoken out loud does not matter.
Being jealous is another reason the ego attacks. For example the cashier who called you “sir” in the Dollar Store a few weeks ago. This was a subtle but still malevolent attack and it was intended to register with your self esteem.
One must always remember that when one lowers one's vibration, they are prone to energy vampiring behaviours. Because the soul connection has decreased and less love, less energy is felt, then the ego attempts to garner energy through obnoxious thinking (stinkin' thinkin' I believe your groups called it) will be re-employed. This is not the way. The way is through forgiveness which will always heal and raise one's vibration.
One must always be cognizant of the fact that when you are attacked, it is an issue with the attacker, not with you. You are simply the target and you have not done anything to deserve the attack. On the contrary, forgiveness is the way to go to correct the wrongs of your world. This is also in the Course in Miracles. You are here to forgive as you have been asked by source to do so. Your power is in your higher behaviours and thinking, and to do otherwise is what Jesus has called, “Indulging your weaknesses.” Many of you live lives of indulging your weaknesses and never understand or exercise your strengths. Your strength is in loving others, even those your ego takes exception with. Your ego is part of the problem on your earth. Your soul is the solution. Look at it that way.
Attacking behaviours? Any thought where another's flaw is the focus of your attention will lead to an attack. Seeing fault in others leads to attack. When you dislike the city you live in, Sharon, it is not the problem of the people that live around you – it is due to your incorrect choice of a place to live. Yes, you came to hold light there and now that job is finishing so you will be able to leave soon.
Me: Good. I'll search for something of a higher vibration.
Ivo: There are still opportunities for self improvement here. To rid yourself of your ego which dislikes what it sees, for example.
Me: True. I'll keep working on it, Ivo. Ivo I just saw you telling me something about practicing the new way of forgiving rather than attacking through the ego....
Ivo: Yes, as you were reading this back, I showed you what you can do to practice the correct behaviour. Instead of waiting for an event to happen which would trigger your ego into a defensive attack on another, use visualization of other events that have happened already, perhaps events where you were triggered into ego and then re-live these events in your mind but practicing the correct approach instead. For example the left turn where you yelled at the other driver who did not yield to the yellow light. See the person going through the yellow light and you calmly waiting for them to pass so you can turn on the red. This is acceptance and it is not acceptance of what is right but acceptance of what IS. Labelling it right or wrong invites the ego into the picture. Good / bad is another example where the ego is triggered. Avoid these labels at all costs. Life just is. Either you accept it and can take steps to change, or you reject it and cause yourself pain by blocking it.
Another example, when you were turning left into Adolphus Street and the person who wanted to turn left onto the street you were on cut you off and turned left in front of you although you had the right of way. You leaned on the horn and were extremely angry. You realize that you have these responses as a result of having PTSD still. Although you have improved, you still have some.
Me: Yes, no flashbacks anymore, thank God.
Ivo: But your quick temper is there and a sense of self-righteousness while you are behind the wheel. Remember that being in the right will not stop an accident from occurring. So it serves no purpose.
Me: I figure that's because I learned to drive when I was 16 and in full ego mode. I haven't really worked much on changing the way I view driving since that time but I need to. I found one trick that worked to help relax me and that was look at how few accidents there are compared to how much time people spend driving on the roads, so somebody has to be doing something right. There are more correct things done than not.
Ivo: And you realize your response is triggered by fear. So that is a start. Understand you feel vulnerable on the road. You gave up using a bike when you were 16 because you got doored and cut off in separate incidents, by the same woman who was unaware of the fact you were riding a bike near her as she tried to park.
Me: Yeah, I swore a blue streak at her. She seemed totally out of it. So I learned that day that many drivers don't have much situational awareness.
Ivo: Then you had a car accident shortly after you got your licence (3 weeks) so you got off to a bad start. This still needs to be healed, my love. I have told you that that was no accident but a murder attempt by the dark. Any other attempts to kill you have been caught and prohibited by myself and your team. However, expecting people to be perfect is folly. You must realize that. You make mistakes as well. And how do you feel when you do?
Me: Guilty and ashamed.
Ivo: These are maladaptive responses.
Me: Okay, I'll look at that.
Ivo: Very good my love. I will help you.
Me: I'm sure you will. LOL
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